This Is Me:-

Phlegmatic wannabe...!! Don't mess up too badly with your role in the world, or you'll always turn up as a villain....

Sunday, May 15, 2011

मैं परमेश्वर!


मैं धवल, श्याम, कोमल, कठोर,
मैं दुर्बल, घृणित, सबल, चितचोर,
मैं कंटक, पुष्प, नीर, अग्नि,
मैं भ्राता पिता-मात, भगिनी,
क्षणभंगुर, शाश्वत, लघु, अनंत,
ब्रह्माण्ड, काल, मैं दिग दिगंत,
मैं शीत, उष्ण, मैं जड़-चेतन,
मैं वैरागी, मैं चंचल मन,
मैं चहू दिशाओं का स्वामी,
मैं भिक्षु, सेवक, खल कामी,
मैं मंच-पात्र, दर्शक, दर्शित,
मैं उदासीन, हर क्षण हर्षित,
मैं ज्ञानी, ज्ञान, अहंकारी,
मैं संतोषी, परोपकारी,
मैं सूर्य, चन्द्र मैं जग-व्यापी,
निर्मल, निर्दोष, परम-पापी,
मैं माया, सृष्टि, जगत नश्वर!!
मैं निराकार, निर्गुण, इश्वर!!

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

The kid and the game

There was a kid, pure, innocent kid.
He lived in perfect bliss all the while.
He was perfect, and he didn't worry or care about anything,
rightly so.
But there was a problem.
He had a great affinity for the video games.
He knew of a place, where they had put up hundreds of video games
for the people hungry for entertainment.

That perfect kid once passed through that place.
And thought a lot, whether he should or shouldn't play video game.
After a lot of introspection, he considered it would waste his time a lot,
and would give him useless unrealistic pains. He decided not to play.
He was about to move out of that place, when his desire to play got better off him a bit.
Confident that he was perfect, and would do away with it after playing for a while,
he turned down his earlier call, and went on to have a go at the game.

He went to a person. Asked him about where should he sit and all.
That person took him to a room.
A dark room.
He asked him to stand on a platform. Yes the excitement level rose.
He put the kid's arms on a panel in front. Got a screen flashed on, also provided specs to the boy for 3D vision.
Few rules were announced about the game initially. The other person left the room.
And the game began.
It had the world of its own, the player spawned on the map.
Beautiful it looked. Beauteous lands, sky, everything.
The beginnig was easy and the kid crossed initial levels with ease and joy.
Slowy he developed some kind of interest for the game. The story, though unpredictable,
was very gripping. The character and graphics were so well designed that kid actually felt that he was in a real world.
Even when he knew it, that it wasnt.
He kept playing on and on, at several stages he got badly hit, at other times he went through emotional blows,
but the pleasure he was getting from the game didn't let him take his eyes off it.
He was so much emotionally attached to the other characters, as if they were for real,
that he would shout in anguish if some thing disliked by him happened.
Then came a time in the game when he almost forgot his actual reality, he was busy playing the game, trying to master
every move in the game,
sometimes he'd do great, some times he'd fail and carry on.
He went through a lot of trauma and bewilderment, then at times he also felt a lot of happiness.
The game carried on with missions and its characters.. New characters would come, and the kid's character, and thus the kid,
wud learn to adjust with them or do what he felt best.
No body bothered the kid.. he carried on with this game.. he almost forgot.. what he was.. and that the game is merely a game..
He got very addicted to the waves of pain and pleasure he could feel, every pain would make him run for even more pleasure.. but
everytime he would try harder at some point or the other he'd fail and fall in despair,
which would make him search for more pleasure,
either by completing some mission successfully, or getting bonus points etc, to balance the pain.
After a long long time, the game eventually ended. But the kid had a lot of impressions from it, he couldnt feel to be a complete champion,
for the failures he had faced at several points.. His desires were to become the perfect player of the video game..
For this he entered another similar room.. The game began, but this time world was a bit different, his character had different habits,
and powers so he had to adjust to them now..
Again success and failures followed.. and the thirst to be a perfect player increased.
And the kid changed the room again, and again, and again..
As he was entering another room, he saw a kid coming out of it.. very calm and composed.. The kid of my story asked, "so, how was it?"
"Fine" the other kid replied.
"You look very happy, you have perfected the game it seems."
"Perfected! What are you talking about? In this game we have an infinite number of characters with varying powers, capabilities.
Everytime you would join in, you'd be assinged a newly created character, so there is no point in thinking of perfecting this game.
And by the way. Its just a game, and I found it rather boring. As at every step some mishap would be there, and.."
"So did you win? or what?"
"No I left the game in between, went in the observer mode, and just enjoyed the scenary, and praised the game developer for
such a great and detailed AI, graphics, etc? And the storyline was such, that it would seem to relate every new character that would join in."
"You mean to say, there was some mode like observer.?"
"Yes it is there.. Might be you got too involved in the game and missed that option. But I was already bored, so Went for that option."
"Thanks brother!"
"Thanks for what?"
"I almost forgot that I had to reach my place in time. This was merely a game, I nearly forgot that. Thank you so much" kid of my story said with
a sigh of relief..

Looks like you got the point. And still if you couldn't that kid was none but the soul that you are, and the video game is the world. If you
could understand why you got so involved in it. :-)

Saturday, April 23, 2011

Being the King!

Now I stand at a point,
where the world is beaming,
and I am clueless,
repeating my words,
recalling my thoughts,
how meaningless they are,
bullying my stands
that I took in the past,
I am seen as a fool,
that I thought I am not,
been true all my life,
just to know its foolish!!

Now I stand at a point,
Where the journey seems
to end,
Where I want to be alone,
a fool, no more,
I want to disappear,
I still will be true,
as that is what I am.
I let my life rule,
and it went where it liked,
but today I take charge!!
and give these words....


When I stand as firm as now,
I never go down,
I am the King, I always was,
I'll win back my crown.

Monday, April 18, 2011

I told to Myself...

 
 "I told to myself: Until the day, I obtain the true, ultimate knowledge. I shouldn't feel that anyone is wrong in doing or thinking anything.. because being critical of others is a poison and wrong in itself"


"I told to myself: Everyone is good, and I should be happy if he/she gets happiness in doing something that seems utterly wrong to me as I am no one to judge what is wrong and right till I really know it, all that matters is that someone is happy, as I have nothing to do with him/her. I can and should just restrain myself from doing or thinking what seems wrong to me, and simply keep away from apparent wrong doers with compassion for them and being respectful of them"

 
"I told to myself: I shouldn't preach others as I am not here to guide people to a dark void that I am looking at, I will guide only when I find the light myself."


"I told to myself: Just do what you feel is right, at max you may consult others but eventually follow your own decision, as following someone else's path makes you just a follower and takes you only up to that person."


"I told to myself: This was the last day of the failure of my will, the next wont ever come."

 

"I told to myself: I should smile now and ever. Detached from all but holy beings."

 

"I told to myself: I should no more run behind pleasure, but towards the righteousness and service. I am the son of god, and I must return to my father victorious!!"
 

This is all that I told to myself, and others may also tell themselves things that they feel like and just try to follow them..

Friday, April 1, 2011

Winters and the Reality!!


It was all water,
the warmth of the love for the beauteous world
would keep it this way...
The flowers and fruits of emotions and desires
would seem attractive, and life would feel like Spring time,
At times, even the smallest pebble would make huge ripples on the surface,
and the waves will grow in size, but only to settle after a brief chaotic display,
and the Spring would continue to be cherished again.

But then how long could I live in ignorance,
how long could I not realize that the Spring is all but a way to chain me down
by the shackles of pleasure and fun,
how long could I keep myself from breaking these shackles,
Here came the reality with Winters,
when the love for the world had all faded away,
same water froze to ice and became as hard as a rock,
It is all but autumn now, the pebbles no more make waves but get crushed instead.
Flowers and fruits of emotions and desires are no where to be seen,
here I am, no more chained down by the spring
and I am free to carry on into the reality!!

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Listen to HIM!!

"Its illogical to expect a well-paved road to a place where none has ever reached."
Think of a master of Ur, who knows where U can meet Ur destiny, for that he'll take u through the path known to him, that path can't be guaranteed to be flower-laden for U, it is bound to have thorns, pebbles. They may make U become circumspect of the validity of the path, you may feel you are all lost. But the truth is, believe in Ur master there was actually no other path for U!! cant be!!
And Ur master doesn't live in any other being, he can't!! He lives in U!! Listen to him!! His voice is so faint that U might not even hear him for the most part of Ur life as you are too engaged in running behind pleasure, senses, thoughts, attachments. U may even misinterpret the voice of Ur mind to be the voice of Ur master, so always remember its the faintest voice (which U can, and almost always, easily overlook) telling U what U should be doing. If following it takes U to worst in Ur life remember to reach Everest you have to cross valleys.

Just search for Ur master first, He'll take U to Ur destiny!!!

Arise!!

I am an artist, who has somehow forgotten his creations,
but today I feel the brush of life is again putting the colors onto my palette of thoughts,
its drawing again,
asking me to grab the brush in my control again, and paint like the master,
that i alwez did!
why live with these shades of gray, the acquired shades,
why not sprinkle the true colors, purify and mystify the world around,
why not enchant them with my enigmatic, graceful masterpeices again,
why not put the smile to the faces again,
why not paint the world as I wished!!
I can see the large dark canvas of this world in front,
and here I put the first stroke of my brush in White,
here in red, here in pink, then green, yellow and blue,
and looks like my palette is doing the trick,
the black canvas is gone,
its all so colorful, beautiful and divine,
but patience!! I am coming!! soon to everyone!!